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Comic Con Hey all, Zeus and I will be hiding out at a table with my friend Bobbie at Salt Lake Comic Con in a week and a half. I will have the originals of my latest dragon pieces there with me, so if you've ever wanted to look up close at them, they'll be there! Otherwise I'm keeping it really low key and mellow this time around for a convention so will only be there at the table and then scampering back home again afterwards.

Unanswered Messages My messages are full right now. I've got around.. 40+ messages sitting in my inbox and 500+ comments sitting in my inbox that haven't been answered, and sadly won't be for at least two weeks. I'm so sorry but I'm a little backed up at the moment so I hope nothing is life or death! When I'm back from Comic Con I'll sit down and clear everything out, but at the moment I just don't have time to.

Livestream A few people have asked when I will do stable hours for livestreaming. The answer is.. not right now? Readying for comic con means that I'm super unpredictable in my hours at the moment. If you've signed up to follow my feed, it will email you when I randomly pop on. I'll settle into hours as soon as I can! 
The stream is: www.picarto.tv/live/channel.ph…

Patreon The free prints are up for my Patrons over on Patreon (for those that don't know, once a month I give a free highres file of various artwork for you to be able to print up your own piece at home. It's one of the ways I say thank you to those who are supporting me).
My Patreon is:  www.patreon.com/Jessi

Etsy The shop is closed down while the convention is going on. I'll be reopening it once I'm back, with all new listings!
Etsy is:  www.etsy.com/shop/Vestaka

Personal Website I need to upgrade my personal website. I don't have any clue how to do this, so I will be looking into pricing having an expert set it up for me. Expect some random sales once I know how much I'm looking at spending, in order to raise the funds. And I do mean really random sales.
Terrible personal site is: jessicamdouglas.com/
streaming a painting my son asked for today<3

www.picarto.tv/live/channel.ph…
Hey, I've gotten several requests for commissions, and I just wanted to do a general heads up that my commissions are closed. Thank you though for your interest, and I'd love to show you some amazing artists who do accept commissions and are fantastic but right now I"m being derpy. So if you're an artist who does commissions, by all means feel free to post your information in the comments below!

Also LIVESTREAMING IS NOW. I'll be streaming the beaded dragon this time, so it'll be slow going. But please please swing by here: www.picarto.tv/live/channel.ph…;

Sign up, talk to me! I love chatting while I art! Ask questions! I love questions!

Also if you become a follower of the page it emails you every time I start streaming, which is awesome for those random 'I feel like streaming now' moments.
Streaming again <3 (apparently if you follow my page it'll email you every time i start stremaing). No sound this time!

www.picarto.tv/live/channel.ph…
HERE YOU GO:

tinyurl.com/nb8vjpl

Today won't be much streaming of art, the art is there but I'm setting up the channel so I'll only be drawing off and on for a bit so it might be boring at first, but bookmark, feel free to ask questions, etc!
Hey guys!

Okay so... the conventions were awesome and a great deal of fun. If you're going to be attending a con (or have a local con you alawys attend) and would like to see my work there, please let me know! I'm back to mailing out to conventions regularly now!

I have a webcam! Thank you to all my Patrons over at PATREON! It's very highquality and beautiful, however my internet is a bit poopy so I will not be able to start livestreaming until monday. BUT I will begin regular livestream sessons, so if there is a particular question/technique/etc that you REALLY want some live/visual demonstrations of start letting me know now so I can plan on having the right materials available!

What is coming up artwise:
Butterfly Tree in a Jar commission, this one won't be for sale guys, she's already sold. But I'm excited to share it!

Plague of Darkness: I've returned to my deification of the 10 plagues of egypt series! I'm starting with darkness and i'm super, super, super excited to show you all! In theory this will be painted live, I'm hoping!

Gemstone Dragon: You all liked Vance's Dragon and Bronzed so much tha tI am working on a series of dragons with *actual gemstones*, pearls, opals, rubies, etc. etc. etc. I'm so excited I cannot wait to show you all!

ANYWAY EXCITING TIMES SO GIVE ME SUGGESTIONS!
I will be at *two* conventions at the same time this weekend. If you're in the Utah area I'll be here!

Friday: I can be found at SLC steamfest in the morning, in the art show. I'll be there probably until about 1 or 2.

Then I can be found all the way across the city at ToshoCon, doing a panel on anatomy and wings at 6 pm.

Saturday I will be back over at SLC steamfest, once again found over in the art show.
THE CAMERA IS HERE! THIS WEEK I WILL BE STREAMING PAINTING! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Thanks to wonderful generosity from everyone.. I was able to purchase the equipment needed to start filming when I paint!

It will be about a week to get here, then I need to set it all up, fumble about a bit and learn how to use it all, but within the next few weeks I should be able to do livestream sessions, and video tutorials for you guys!

Because of the generosity of my Patrons over on my Patreon site www.patreon.com/Jessi  I will be putting the video tutorials online for *free*. No charge. As I progress I'm  hoping to be able to address specific techniques that have been hanging people up, and really do what I can to help everyone with their artistic endeavors.

I'm so excited!!
Hey guys. So long story short, I was struck by an intense bout of genius over the weekend, thanks to a trip to a gem shop with my beautiful daughter. It will be along the lines of Vance's dragon with real stones, melted metal, etc. I'm really excited to do this, but it's going to take a major investment in gemstones just to do the painting alone! (No really guys, this is going to be epic).

So, I've dug through my remaining unsold art, as well as some pieces that have ended up back in my hands for various reasons (one person traded a painting of mine for me to do a commission, another defaulted on their layaway, etc.) and I've just not put back up for sale since they came back to me. I'm ranging everything from the really expensive/popular pieces, to lesser known, lower priced paintings so that everyone gets a shot at something random. ONWARD TO THE ART.

Shipping must be added on to the price, shipping depends on if you are international or not, so I will quote you shipping once I know where it is going. Generally it is $7 to $12

Starting this off with a blast from the past!
Trust me by JessicaMDouglas
That's right. I still have this drawing! It's an oldy but one I've always been fond of because his wings came out JUST the way I wanted. He is 8.5 by 11 pencil on cardstock and I am asking $30 for him.

Next meet King!
King by JessicaMDouglas
This painting is watercolor, and is 4.5 by 9.5 inches big. He was a fun take on a lionfish based dragon, that I really enjoyed doing! I'm asking $30 for him!

Who likes Gryphons?
Nightwatch by JessicaMDouglas
Several years back I was HUGE on Gryphons of a variety of types and shapes. Nightwatch here is roughly 4.5 by 8 inches, and was watercolor and colored pencils. I'm asking $30 for him.  SOLD

More Gryphons?
Leapfrog by JessicaMDouglas
Leapfrog is another try at gryphons! He is roughly 5 by 10 (my tape measure is doing funky things, so that's rough estimate), and is watercolor and colored pencils! I'm asking $30 for him!  SOLD

How about a different type of creature?
Hummiphants by JessicaMDouglas
This was a challenge from a friend to combine the biggest animal I coudl think of, with the smallest. So hummiphants were born! Hummingbird elephants! This is pencil on cardstock, and is 8.5 by 9.5. I'm asking $30 for them! THESE GUYS ARE SOLD

Some older mermaid art:
Playing with forever by JessicaMDouglas Slight damage by JessicaMDouglas
The original does not have the black border, and there is some small damage to her, which you can see in the second picture. I'm asking $40 for her, in light of the damage. She is roughly 6 x 17

Now for a little more recent work:
Magnolia by JessicaMDouglas
I really love how her eyes came out, but feel frustrated with the rest. I'm asking $65 for her, because I honestly feel that she's not a very strong representation of my work. My frustration is your gain! She is 10 x 20

Oh look what I found!
Daphne by JessicaMDouglas
I learned so much working on this piece, and yet.. was SO FRUSTRATED iwth it! My frustration, your gain! I'm asking $75 for her! She is also 10 x 20

Speaking of learning frustrations:
The Ocean by JessicaDouglas
I still have the original version of this, that you may remember I went back and repainted! She's a HUGE learning experience and I"m offering the original take of her for  $45! She's 10 x 20!

Also this was another learning piece that i never really did much with beyond the first color studies
experiement in art by JessicaMDouglas
She is 10 x 20 and I'm asking $35 for her. She is sold!

And now.. the big three.

Death. Famine and Strife.
The original set went for $800 each, but long story short I ended up with two of the four back in my possession. I'm lowering the price to $400 each. Death and Famine are on 12 x 16 board, and are watercolor and colored pencil. Strife is 16 x 20 and has the addition of gold enamel added to her. Shipping is free with all three of these.

I WILL ACCEPT LAYAWAY FOR THESE because I know it's not often people have $400 just laying around. Please contact me about it to work out the terms <3

Apocalypse: Death by JessicaMDouglasApocalypse: Strife by JessicaMDouglasApocalypse: Famine by JessicaMDouglas

Edit: Strife is now sold.
Hey guys!

I've been a little busy prepping for four conventions at once right now, so my apologies for any missed messages! This month/beginning of next month my work will be at

Spocon
SlcSteamfest
Osfest

And I'm still finalizing details for the panels I'll be doing at the last con.

IF YOU GO TO ANTHROCON REGULARLY; I am looking for a possible agent to take my work there next year. This is all hinged on my being accepted to show there, but I would be willing to compensate the person hanging my work either monetarily or in trade. It would require receiving my art in the mail, arriving to the show early and checking my work in, hanging it. Then at the end of the con, checking my unsold work out and shipping it back to me (I pay for shipping of course). Please message me if you're interested.

If you attend other cons and wish to see my work there, please let me know! I'm back in the game!

If you are an art show director and have last minute conventions happening, I do need *at least* two weeks notice (to account for shipping), but I am in a really feisty GET WORK DONE mode so don't mind last minute requests to show.
Hey guys. So... I was talking to a friend and something occurred to me that I don't think many of us really think about. While doing a demonstration for her, she expressed how much she loved the really fancy watercolor paints I was using. I talked to her about how they were bound with honey and I love them, and then she saw the price and blanched.

"They're HOW much?"

It threw her for a loop and frightened her from working with quality materials, because of how much they cost. Her work currently is not priced at a level that allows her to purchase new supplies, because she's always selling at just barely enough to get by. Maintain the standard. And there's the first really rough part, is slowly putting your prices in a place where you can afford to upgrade your materials.

I know it can be scary, looking at all the materials professional artists have and quelling at the expense. I've seen some artists just LEAP into it, dumping their life savings into the best quality materials right off the bat. While it'd be lovely to do that all the time, most of us don't have that luxury. But.. you know what? You really don't need to just leap into the fray like that. Not if you're living paycheck to paycheck. It will take patience, but I believe that you can slowly work your way up to those high end tools you adore, without breaking the bank.

One thing I suggest is making a list of all your supplies that you have on hand. Now make a list of the ones that you *need* (high or low quality) to continue working. From there, prioritize what you wish to replace first. When I started to seriously watercolor, I actually didn't replace my paint first. I started with my brushes, because an artist is really only as good as their tools, and mine were frayed and just horrible. I didn't start swapping my actual paints until I had started consistently using nicer boards, and nicer brushes. Then I began to slowly replace my tubes with better ones.

Always keep your eyes open for a sale and don't be afraid to buy things out of order of your prioritized list, if a great deal comes along.

The great thing about this, is that the higher end goods USUALLY last longer than the cheaper. So you'll find yourself replacing things less often, and have more money for upgrades. That said, do your research! Don't let price fool you, it doesn't always mean quality. Talk to other artists, see what they can't live without.

Pace yourself. Set goals, set small amounts aside for those goals, and then BE PATIENT. Don't expect immediate results when upgrading your materials piece by piece. But also don't forget to slowly adjust your pricing to take into account the finer grade supplies.

You can do it!
It's the little things. A friend messaged me noting that I've been a lot happier lately and I wanted to just share what I've been doing, on the off chance it might help someone else.

I'm starting slow because I'm pretty broken. The slightest bit of negativity can send me spiraling down out of control in a heartbeat. So first.. I am doing the forgiveness challenge regularly, even for little things (because it's the little things that bog me down).  I'm slowly training my brain to... let go.

I've joined a tumblr blog called 'unfuckyourhabitat', that is all about just.. blunt reminders every day that you can do it, when it comes to self care. It gives you little daily steps to help cut down clutter, get through the mess and get yourself together. Plus the writer casually cusses the way I do, so I feel comfortable reading it. I've been doing at least ONE thing towards self care every single day. Sometimes it's making my bed. Sometimes it's just.. brushing my hair. But either way I do something to say 'I deserve care'. it's easier to get motivated to make big changes, when the small ones start building up.

I'm taking time to appreciate the recognition I receive each day. You know, so many of us glance over the positivity we receive in our art, but then focus almost obsessively on the bad. Have you ever noticed a large portion of artists will not respond at all to the flood of positive comments, but then... that one negative one gets a response? Or if they do respond to all their comments, inevitably the negative ones get addressed first? And get the bulk of their attention? While positive comments generally get a 'thank you' and are forgotten? I know that's how I've been in the past, and part of it was just the overwhelming amount of comments I had to get through made it all become a haze. But I've been approaching it differently now. I set aside the negative to reply to later, and then bulk myself up in basking in the positive. I try to devote a bit of time with each comment, even something as simple as 'nice!' gets a moment for me to stop and go... hey. This person liked my work enough to stop and post something, rather than just clicking by after looking. I affected them. I achieved something here. The negative stuff? I can look at it after I've taken some good quality time with the positive.

What happened at Westercon was a HUGE wake up call for me. A wall of ribbons. And then a wall of empty panels when I went to collect my unsold art and I had practically sold out (only two prints didn't sell, the rest that didn't sell was nfs). Guys... how can you possibly say louder to me that I am on the right path with my art? That I should continue? That I NEED to continue to grow and evolve and create and share? When I moved out here I had put all my awards into storage and hid them away. Now I feel like that was a mistake, because seeing those ribbons, seeing *people's choice* and *judges choice* and.. best in show... I just... you guys chose me. you said 'that is what I like'. And you've said it in the past as well. It's time I put those up where I can see them every day and when I'm having crippling self doubt I look up and go.. hey, it's okay.

I've also started to slowly take the things I wished that others would do for me in my times of need.. and applied it to those around me. Lots of pay it forwards happening around here. When a friend is showing signs that I recognize in myself from being in distress, I am taking time to stop what I am doing and do what I can to offer support and help. I cannot offer much, but I found that when my friends are in a happier, secure place? I am too. Call it selfish motivation but their emotional state affects mine, and so it's in my best interest to see that they are happy.

I still need serious medical care, 'think happy thoughts' isn't enough to combat the hallucinations, seizures, mild strokes, etc. But they are enough to keep me from feeling hopeless and like I should just give up. Happiness is really important.

So that's my update on my emotional state and why I seem so up lately.
I am currently at Westercon 67, and I just want to say that today has been the most awesome day.

I ran into Peter Beagle (Last Unicorn author), who remembered meeting me around ten years ago because I made a total fool of myself, and we had an awesome conversation about poodles. Cause he met Zeus.

I struggled with Monster in an Hour, because I seem to have pulled a muscle in my arm so drawing upright was painful, I am slightly ambidextrous so swapped hands frequently so I didn't miss out though.

And... I went to the art show and discovered I won FOUR awards.
Copper Dreams by JessicaMDouglas  won Judge's Choice

The Dreaming Tree (edited/new upload please view) by JessicaMDouglas won second runner up to best in show

Vance's Dragon by JessicaMDouglas won both People's Choice award AND Best in show!
Hi everyone. I am pleased to announce that the 78 Tarot kickstarter has gone live!

www.kickstarter.com/projects/1…

We have 78 artists including people like myself, Larry Elmore, Jasmine Becket-Griffith, Meredith Dillman and more!

My card is the 4 of coins/pentacles. And while the original painting as sold, this is your chance to snag it in it’s home in the deck!
Someone darling gifted me a premium membership and...

... I have no clue what to do with it! I haven't had one in a long time and I'm not sure what all I can do lol! Help I would love suggestions!
So following my dear friend Ang's advice, I've set up a patreon page. This is a page for those who do not wish to buy individual pieces of art (or only wish to offer some support once in a while), to be able to be a patron of the arts.

My immediate goal with this site is to raise the funds to be able to purchase recording equipment, so that I can film tutorials of my process for you all to utilize and enjoy. This is not something I wish to charge for, but something I wish to offer as a way to give back to the community that has given me so much. The videos will be uploaded on youtube with free access for all... once I get the right equipment to do so! So far I have reached the monthly pledge requirement for me to meet my goal in one year. Obviously more will make it possible for me to put this into motion faster.

How the site works is that you pledge a certain amount of money per painting or sculpture I complete each month. You are able to cap it out (for example, pledge $1 per painting, with a maximum of 2 paintings a month), and edit/cancel your pledge at any point in time. I will be offering exclusive content, rewards, art, prints, and even commissions through the site as thanks to my patrons.

If you have any suggestions of rewards you would like to see, please feel free to message me with the suggestions. I cannot guarantee that I will implement them but I am always grateful for more ideas.

If you are interested or wish to learn more, please check out my page here: www.patreon.com/user?u=168847


Also for those that want to keep up with *constant* works in progress, feel free to follow my tumblr. I also use it to randomly babble about WoW, talk to friends, and look at pictures of derpy animals. But while I am working on new paintings you will see updates every few hours as I make progress on my paintings.   drovie.tumblr.com/
So I haven't done an exploring art journal in a while, I thought I'd post one now.

I was doing a little reading in some art history books a friend gave me, and stumbled on a recent history event that evoked an artistic form of protest.

Starting September 11, 1973, Chile became a rather...  horrendous place to live. People were kidnapped, tortured, jailed, abused in a dozen ways when the elected president was overthrown by the military coup of Augusto Pinochet. I don't know much of anything about this situation, but... one thing that came of it was a rather subversive form of protest in the form of beautiful embroidery and applique art.

People who were kidnapped, who mysteriously vanished, were remembered in incredible textile art called arpilleras. They were bright and beautiful. Images of happy times, celebrations and life in general. They often had bits of old clothes from the missing added in, parts of photographs, and so on. In this way the families of Chile could grieve and remember their lost ones when they couldn't speak out for fear of their own lives.

It's... very intense to read about, I've only just touched on the topic a little. Here is a rather well written article about the subject with several examples of this artform: cachandochile.wordpress.com/20…

It's humbling to read about people who have taken art to change the world, to move people, to speak out when their words have been taken from them. To grieve. What myself, and many others, take as a casual thing to doodle while bored can mean life or death for another in some pretty profound ways.

It makes me stop and look at my art from new eyes. Re-examine the work I've done and the goals I reach for. Perhaps change my priorities a little.
Thirty days ago I sat down with my therapist and discussed serious life changes, one of the things he suggested I do, was to try the thirty day forgiveness challenge. One of the things I struggle with the most, is forgiving others for wrongs done. It's so bad that it EATS at me, and devours me until my life is spent angry at these people and wanting them to pay for their wrongs, and not spent being the shining person I used to be.

I'm tired of it.

So... I started the challenge. I was wary when I started it, because there was mention of religion, and it had a very new age feel to it. Don't get me wrong, I think the new age movement has a lot going for it. But sometimes it feels a bit like a con game rather than people genuinely trying to find peace and goodness for others. That may be why I never really got too far with those groups.

Anyway, I began the challenge and picked someone who, in all honesty, is easy to forgive and still a part of my life, but who I have trust issues arise from time to time because of past circumstances. I took this challenge seriously, walked into it and just.. went with it.

... and it worked.

I'm kind of astonished, because my ability to trust has been broken SO BADLY at this point that I really did believe that I was not capable of trusting anymore. It was a startling change, surprisingly fast, and surprisingly all encompassing. I didn't learn to hide my feelings and not speak on it, or to just keep my mouth shut while I still felt hurt (which is what past attempts at resolving this had lead to). I felt.. closure. Completed. It was finished, it was no longer a source of pain. It was done.

There are no words for the relief I felt. Even if it's just a tiny little step, the fact that I can look at my friend and not feel that itching distrust that was always under the surface, not question their motives every time they spoke to me... It's not just that it's calming an existing friendship, it's that it proves that I AM still capable of trusting others. That I am not broken beyond repair.

So, I would like to link the challenge here, and say if you have something you need working through? Conflict with a friend? Give it a try. It might help.  

forgivenesschallenge.com/
Had to put down my dog Joe today. This was him back when I first got Zeus. He'd just snooze and let the puppy climb all over him. I got him years and years ago when I ran into a girl who was crying because she had moved here from montana with her new puppy only to find out that they weren't allowed dogs, and she didn't want to take him to the pound. So I bought him for twenty bucks. He was so tiny then.

RIP Joe. by JessicaMDouglas